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i have at least 5 friends who went to school to be school counselors and what not.. completely goes against the grain for me. Problems are for friends, not someone you don't know. The process is good (in it's most innocent form) but to pay someone to make you think.....<good/bad possiblities here>. I've found talking with close friends and figuring shit out myself is best for me, especially the latter.

The things asked in vent were related to my upbringing. The person asked core questions that I didn't feel they had any right to ask due to how long I've known them and the approach. My friend Tracey (guy) knew things I've just found out in the last year since he knew my sister (who is 5 years older than me) but refused to hand me the answers or even say he knew.. One day a few months back I was over and I said "<insert explaination of something related to my parents here>. but you knew all that didn't you?" he just said "Yeah..."

Without you knowing my life or him it's hard to convey that as it was presented, if not impossible, but the feeling in the room (his wife was there) was one of remorse, thankfullness and the like. I'm glad I have friends like that whom understand what's going on w/me and stuff. Not in a puberty way but like what kinda methods work with getting me through shit. My parents have always failed at recognizing cause and effect with me and my sister, therefore we both pretty much brought ourselves up along with friends.

One question this guy asked was, "Have you ever been abused?" I replied, "My whole childhood was abuse." (As a whole, not full of instances.)

Please note this isn't some "feel sorry for me" thing as some members' first impressions are but rather just an inside perspective to why I mistrust people, keep them out, etc. A few of you oldschool FA guys know what I'm like, but not many. I hope to get to know some of you as well as some of my real-life friends.

Cheers,
})FA| blood//Gotenks

PS: There was a reason I was always on IRC saying I was bored back in the day ;) Now-days I've learned to use it, "it" meaning "being almost completely independant from my parents."

PPS: wordy I'm sure, but informative. Used to write a blog but got tired of updating it. *Shrug* I'm also the type that if you'd like to know something, ask, but expect a detailed answer.

^that was long overdue to some old members.